DarthVader

well...starting to look forward in life again...no longer having break downs like I was. going forward without someone isnt easy, but have come to grips with it!.
if this Covid-19 thing goes away by next summer,I'm looking at doing a sort of walkabout(on a bicycle). going to start with some of the states I have not seen as well as some of Canada. then maybe hit Europe or ?.....
with all that said, going to get rid of most of my things and then put rest in storage. fresh start in this life!...living the Hippy life !!

Transported

Great plan. By bicycle especially. Slice of life. I am jealous.

chadams66

I had a friend who bicycled across the country...somewhere around half way he sent a postcard back...all it said was: pedal,pedal,pedal,pedal,pedal,pedal,pedal,pedal,pe dal.......

DarthVader

yesterday...big big break through....first time since this happened that she wasnt in my head when I was riding!!!I think being on the new to me bike and not the ZX6R helped. it even felt right to be out riding!...and I was always kind of worried that if I came onto another bike crash I would have issues, not to be!...As I came onto one on HWY 20 on way back yesterday and it did bother me seeing a fellow rider down, but wasnt what I thought it would be....I do hope the rider was ok, as he was sitting up and talking with officer....

yesterday....major ZEN!

DarthVader

mrfz1

congrats... big mile stone for you.

Tombraider2

Good to see your getting along. I haven't been here in over a year, first thing I see, cheers.

sunofnun

Thats a lot to work through.
Cheers to being back on 2 wheels..

I'll bet she's got a smile on her face watching you carving canyons again.

DarthVader

Well crap....dealing with PTSD...pretty sure due to her birthday
coming up in a few weeks. Going to try to get out on bike tomorrow
and run up and pay my respects to where we spread her ashes. I
hope if I am able to do this, that MAYBE I can get back to some
kind of normal soon!....the migraine and lack of sleep is not good!

ZXtasy

Be safe, stay focused. It only hurts so bad because you loved so much, and were loved.

B R E A T H E

DarthVader

Wednesday....it will be 2 years...it seems like just yesterday she left me! 🙁
this year it isn’t as crippling as it was last...at the moment, my head is in
a ok place at least. Not having any break downs etc. is nice at least!..will
be doing the monkeybutt this year on a different bike, so that should help
as well..but with all my health issues, it very well could be one of my final
rides...

DarthVader

2 years as of today....😢

A2B

Hang in there. Get through the storm and sunny, dry roads are ahead.

Candiya

Sending hugs...

DarthVader

2 years since we spread her ashes....and I'm doing alright!...focused on my life moving forward now and finding a new place to live!....now if only I could find a place I could afford!?!?!?....anyone out there in need of a room mate?...I just need a room, bath, and small amount of a clean kitchen!...prefer washington state.
thx again for everyone here helping me get to this point!...2 years ago I didnt think I would still be alive at this point, but here I am!!!...I have never felt so low in life like I did after that!..again, thank all of you!